There are moments in life where we all wonder “Am I ever
going to be happy?”
There was a time in my life where I found myself overwhelmed
by so many things and always in a bad mood. I was always in defense mode ready to answer
back or prove my point whenever confronted.
It was exhausting and took a lot
of energy to live this way but I felt this was the only way I could protect
myself from any harm. I would spend day
after day upset, angry at the world and would avoid having to speak to people due
to certain situations. I lived so many days wondering if I would ever
get a break.
I felt hostage to these negative emotions; trapped in a very
closed environment where I couldn’t see any hope or solutions to my problems. I was constantly seeking approval and wanted
to feel valuable. My ultimate dream was
to be set free and to be happy. One day
I was looking for a few clothes and found an old pair of size 5/6 jeans. The majority of my wardrobe, at that time, was
a size 24. At that moment I had a quick snapshot
of my life and realized that I was using food to numb my emotions.
Recently, about a few Sundays ago, I looked inside my closet
and found nothing bigger than a size Medium and 7/8 pants that’s when I said “WOW, I am completely happy.” Today,
I realize how we invest so much energy on things that really don’t matter at
the end of the day. I had allowed small
things to get to me and make me miserable and didn’t realize that my life was
so much more and full of greater meaning. I encourage you to evaluate the things that
bother you and find out if they have a valuable meaning in your life. We can
live our lives in misery and allow the smallest things to ruin our day or we
can see the good in every situation and live our lives with meaning. Don’t argue over the small stuff! J
This is GOALYGO!
Yanira ALY Nazario :))